I really don't have the same concerns I used to. I do not even care about maybe. I still care alot, but not about the things that might be, they don't matter right now, and when they do I won't care then, so why care now? I'll just say "Oh well" to everything that could go wrong and try to avoid them, but not to the point of distraction.
I thought a thought to put on ere then though, hmm, it would really make a better song, but that's when I thought that maybe the reason I used facebook was to compensate for my lack of ability to get my ideas out to the world.
It was my goal in my teens to have my music heard around the world, so I sent music to people all arounf the world and asked that they would play my cd, they didn't have to listen or be effected in any way. Check! it was accomplished, but then, I got sick, and though I hate to speak in cliche' "when a door is closed a window is opened." I was able to actually share my ideas with all of the world and everyone else fgot to see how consuming it is to write music. look how addictive facebook is. Well, I do not mind giving thatr up to work on writtingf my ideas in songs again. I cannot help but point out that even theSavior spoke in parables or stories which were not plain to everyone, so what if people never understand my songs? I got to share a whole lot of my ideas. I just had another, I want to start a blog called my desk, and in one drawer, I'll hide away a note to my beloved!
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Friday, March 2, 2012
stranger than fiction
Just that title alone makes me think of other strange coicidence I ought to jot down, but I mean to do one thing only, to tell of my latest adventure, kinda.
I have never been so happy to loose a tooth in my life!
As strange as that sounds, it is a bit like the movie "Castaway". Only I didn't have an ice skate. I looked at other options. My pain was so terrible for days it hurt to eat, so I simply stopped eating or chewing gum. Speaking usually hurts, but I rarely say more than I have too. I mostly type (which is pain free). But, today, my headache was making it almost too intense to bear. I took Asprin, to no avail. What's up with that stuff anyway? So, I finished my daily Lapghan strip for Joseph and was baking a pizza. My pain was so bad that I decided to take a hot bath, but grabbed a slice of pizza and figured that I would just suck on it while I took a bath, then I noticed something else in my mouth so I spit it out. I couldn't figure out where it came from, even in the mirror. It was my tooth and the pain in my mouth where it had been was gone, It still feels odd but it was a massive relief!
I have never been so happy to loose a tooth in my life!
As strange as that sounds, it is a bit like the movie "Castaway". Only I didn't have an ice skate. I looked at other options. My pain was so terrible for days it hurt to eat, so I simply stopped eating or chewing gum. Speaking usually hurts, but I rarely say more than I have too. I mostly type (which is pain free). But, today, my headache was making it almost too intense to bear. I took Asprin, to no avail. What's up with that stuff anyway? So, I finished my daily Lapghan strip for Joseph and was baking a pizza. My pain was so bad that I decided to take a hot bath, but grabbed a slice of pizza and figured that I would just suck on it while I took a bath, then I noticed something else in my mouth so I spit it out. I couldn't figure out where it came from, even in the mirror. It was my tooth and the pain in my mouth where it had been was gone, It still feels odd but it was a massive relief!
Time for my face, huh?
The first is Lena, then is me on February 2nd, 2012.
Maybe I ought to start a blog just for faces. Then show how they change over time! if time lasts that is.
A revelation
If things do not happen and you keep praying for them. It isn't that your prayer isn't answered. Stop praying for that, and notice what you are being given. You probably are being answered, just not getting the one "sign" that you want.
Such a little thing
During my preparation time, I realized that my Oaths are serious, not just words spoken to get what I want, well, sorta, but what I want requires integrity.
I must never view pirated material again, if it just effects me I'm okay with it, but my children really love to play several games on the wii and the DS that I cannot afford, but they, too are reasonible, and if I just explain myself wholy to them, they will understand.
It is funny. I told Lena that I had almost a single purpose to learning all I could, I wanted to be able to answer every question and never say "Just because" I explained to her that most times I think others could have told me why but they didn't have the patience, it frustrated me so much. Then When I told her to turn off the TV to get ready to leave (cause soon her father would be here to pick her up), she asked, "Why?" . I didn't bother answering her. Then she said, "Well, you're doing it right now. If you hate it so much why don't you just answer me." d'oh! So, repirmanded, I did explain it to her and she obeyed me. I explained that knowing why was not a requitiste for obedience, though, just a courtsey.
I must never view pirated material again, if it just effects me I'm okay with it, but my children really love to play several games on the wii and the DS that I cannot afford, but they, too are reasonible, and if I just explain myself wholy to them, they will understand.
It is funny. I told Lena that I had almost a single purpose to learning all I could, I wanted to be able to answer every question and never say "Just because" I explained to her that most times I think others could have told me why but they didn't have the patience, it frustrated me so much. Then When I told her to turn off the TV to get ready to leave (cause soon her father would be here to pick her up), she asked, "Why?" . I didn't bother answering her. Then she said, "Well, you're doing it right now. If you hate it so much why don't you just answer me." d'oh! So, repirmanded, I did explain it to her and she obeyed me. I explained that knowing why was not a requitiste for obedience, though, just a courtsey.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
backfire
Like a gun, when it is fired at a target, that requires a skill in aiming, and tends to result in a kick back, or backfire.
My aim was to have a notion reaffirmed, because, well, nevermind the because, the whole thing backfired when I was feeling secure at last. I got knocked on my butt. Am I really that confusing. Naw, it is just a security measure, to bury pearls in my words to be discovered only by those who are actually looking for them.
It occurred to me that long after I die my words will remain, hence I avoid using a pencil or ink that bleeds (though admittedly, paper chromatography is cool).
I just yawned!!! That's easy enough to understand.
My aim was to have a notion reaffirmed, because, well, nevermind the because, the whole thing backfired when I was feeling secure at last. I got knocked on my butt. Am I really that confusing. Naw, it is just a security measure, to bury pearls in my words to be discovered only by those who are actually looking for them.
It occurred to me that long after I die my words will remain, hence I avoid using a pencil or ink that bleeds (though admittedly, paper chromatography is cool).
I just yawned!!! That's easy enough to understand.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
What I learned on Sunday
I probably wasn't quick enough on this, now alot of my scribbles are illegible to even me. I need a Urim and thumin (sp?) myself. but, here goes:
1)Wars seem to stir something in the soul. Think of CS Lewis and JRR Tolkien, the Wheel of Time wisdom and even all of the killings and war in the Book of Mormon, which we were wisely told not to skip over. I think naturally great things come from terrible things. Like the movie "Braveheart".
2) I asked my children if they wanted extra blessings in their lives.
I told them that I ought to read my scriptures every day if they did, but if they asked me, I wouldn't. I noted that it was a way to make my personal scripture time less selfish. Though, actually it is selfish, I would still read if they told me not to.
3) It has always been common for people to hide expectations for the future events because they DIDN'T happen yet, but people are still required to believe it. Their lives may even depend on it. I wonder why living is so critical. by definition that's what critical is, huh? How about dire.
4)Light is cool? Or Light is God. Well, same thing. Why not take light out of it and just say God is cool?
5)I can't read this well, but I vaguely remember. It says sobirty prophecy can be understood by those who are similarly minded. And what it means to me is that is why we are all wanting a zion and would sacrifice so much to be understood and we know it will only happen when we are with those of like hearts and minds. It also makes me think about art and how it says different things to different people or even the same person at different times. the whole thought was started simply by asking about why the lord used parables to talk, Those who have ears... I have always loved Isaiah for different reasons, though.
6)I cannot properly understand this so I'll just copy it. "Fortune of having great moments of learning even it clouds negative a lot like Hannah See good in bad."
7) Joseph Smith didn't just have a simple question. His question was not one just hap hazzardly thought one day. It had been weighing on his mind for a considerable amount of time.
8)Keep in mind that your best days are your worst days.
9) memorizing songs and scriptures is a great way to give your mind fodder to help push out or kill thoughts intended to ruin the singularity of your purpose.
10) Thinking of the song "100 years" Where he explains that our perspectives change with our wants and needs.
11) "we have Celestial experiences but don't have Celestial words to describe it." And older gentleman said this and I thought it profound.
Scrpitures that I jotted down: Please look up 2 Nephi 12, and D&C 50:20 there is a light bulb doodled next to it.
1)Wars seem to stir something in the soul. Think of CS Lewis and JRR Tolkien, the Wheel of Time wisdom and even all of the killings and war in the Book of Mormon, which we were wisely told not to skip over. I think naturally great things come from terrible things. Like the movie "Braveheart".
2) I asked my children if they wanted extra blessings in their lives.
I told them that I ought to read my scriptures every day if they did, but if they asked me, I wouldn't. I noted that it was a way to make my personal scripture time less selfish. Though, actually it is selfish, I would still read if they told me not to.
3) It has always been common for people to hide expectations for the future events because they DIDN'T happen yet, but people are still required to believe it. Their lives may even depend on it. I wonder why living is so critical. by definition that's what critical is, huh? How about dire.
4)Light is cool? Or Light is God. Well, same thing. Why not take light out of it and just say God is cool?
5)I can't read this well, but I vaguely remember. It says sobirty prophecy can be understood by those who are similarly minded. And what it means to me is that is why we are all wanting a zion and would sacrifice so much to be understood and we know it will only happen when we are with those of like hearts and minds. It also makes me think about art and how it says different things to different people or even the same person at different times. the whole thought was started simply by asking about why the lord used parables to talk, Those who have ears... I have always loved Isaiah for different reasons, though.
6)I cannot properly understand this so I'll just copy it. "Fortune of having great moments of learning even it clouds negative a lot like Hannah See good in bad."
7) Joseph Smith didn't just have a simple question. His question was not one just hap hazzardly thought one day. It had been weighing on his mind for a considerable amount of time.
8)Keep in mind that your best days are your worst days.
9) memorizing songs and scriptures is a great way to give your mind fodder to help push out or kill thoughts intended to ruin the singularity of your purpose.
10) Thinking of the song "100 years" Where he explains that our perspectives change with our wants and needs.
11) "we have Celestial experiences but don't have Celestial words to describe it." And older gentleman said this and I thought it profound.
Scrpitures that I jotted down: Please look up 2 Nephi 12, and D&C 50:20 there is a light bulb doodled next to it.
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