I was praying about what on earth I should do about my health, I was perplexed with my latest review of my statistics, at the time each made sense, but when stepping back and looking for trends and such I couldn't make sense of it. My logical conclusion was that my blood sugar spiked because I needed it to so that I would be able to exercise. And whenever I did not exercise because of low blood-sugar the result is that my body always performs ideally. One might even call it a miracle.
So, I was praying and almost complaining/crying about how it just makes no sense... back up... the reason I was praying in the first place was because of some quote from a lesson in institute about if we had faulty hardware we would contact the manufacturer, and God is the creator of all so, I 100% knew that he could easily see what was going on here. And my undeniable answer was that when I actually start doing the things I have already been told, it will all work out. At this point I jolted up and decided to make a chart for the things I had the idea to do but at first bit of resistance I gave up. I will try harder. I will not be the good seed that never took root.
Then, as I was washing some dishes I thought about how many times I had prayed that I be healthy and strong. Well, duh! I meant it didn't I? Why be confused that I had health and strength regardless what the other gurus said should happen.
Ultimately, my dad was right. I really get tired of realizing that. Ofcourse he was right. That's why I chose him to be my dad! By the number of kids you can tell he was popular, no? I digress.
My conclusion is that if I pray for health and strength I will have it. I honestly should stop thinking Heavenly Father would have the same ideal in mind as does the rest of the world.
It is going to be hard, to stop exercising so much and eat when I get hungry and pray, but I believe it will make me truly beautiful, regardless if that seems so. Honestly, most of the people I think are truly beautiful would not win even runner up in a beauty pageant, so theres that.
I need to focus my time and energy elsewhere, this self-help, health crap is a perfectly designed stumbling block! It actually reminds me of the leaders who tried to get people to do something other than what was needful at a youth conference. I thought I was so clever because I knew what was going on there, and yet, I failed to see this while it was wasting my precious time away.
I conclude that beauty is not going to look the same on every person.