Apathetic skills

It is no use! I wonder if my memory is off . I bet I was never good to begin with. Either way, writting songs is just not my thing. If it was I would have had a bit f success by now, and I just do not want t comeup with a great expination/story to explain why every piece of garbage I compose is precisely that. I used to be a whole lot better with about all that trainiing and crap. That is why I think of persuing other tasks, because I am less knowledgeable hence less critical and find more joy in doing it. I think it is alot like the grl who is ugly and successful because she is praised for having so much confidence, but really all she has is ignorance. She is oblivious to the fact the she is suchmuch uglier than everyone else. Aso, I have been thinking alot this evening about what someone said in passing. The jist was that with talents, no one hs said what makes a talent yet, so we do not know if we "take it with us" but we doknow that "You use it or loose it." It was said in response to my seeking advice regarding my thoughts of wether I would be able to run again, it is not a muscular issue, and would I, like a bike be able to just take off and run again, or would apathy be so set in that I would have to relearn.