Random babble

I do not understand the compulsion I have to type things out, maybe it is because I am afraid that I'll get old or stop thinking and I get upset that I do not have more photos of myself and musical compositions from before I lost everything. I know that it is only temporary, but in that little interim, I would like to occupy my thoughts with what was, rather than inaccurately recall that I was much better than I could have possibly been, and lament my loss more than is necessary.

Today, I thought 2 things c/o stargate atantis.

1) how the most entertaining episodes mirrored my life at the time, only because it is fiction everything has a happy ending. note: I'm thinking of that episode where McKay endured a "second Childhood". He got sick with a parasite that was only able to harm him because his imune system was compromised, everyone else gets infected too likely, but their body fights it off successfully. I like the line where he says, "I have already lost more than most people ever have." It is interesting that people like him better as he begins to show signs of his progressive illness. I was thinking, yeah, people maybe it is better to not have him back in his full arrogance.

2) Trye captured Ronan who also was thought to be under Michael's influence, uh, I mean the wraith's. but his loyalty was still to John Shepherd, though no one knew it. I particularly paid attention to how such a pretended loyalty got him close enough to help what seemed an impossible situation, Ofcourse, everything ended well and fine. That reminds me of the trick used on the replicators in not letting Woolsey know the real plan so when he thought that he had betrayed his cohorts when he had his brain searched, and we as viwers believe all that we see to be true, but it is not. It is only as Woolsey believes it to be, which was part of the plan. He gives away a "secret" plot to escape, which was a partof the real secret plot to escape. I love that.

It just occured to me that reading blogs s like putting my hand in someone else's mind.