I have been thinking alot about the conference talk on how we find sacrament meeting how we approach it. I always love it, I almost feel as strongly about it that I dare say that I love to go to Sacrament meeting, maybe like sugar, I think the Love is a type of addiction, but at the time my children were very bored and I thought how it is like mustard for me. I hated it when I was a child, but I am quite fond of it now, so much that I cannot have a hoagie sandwich witout it. nick is watching the Matrix and I am just blown away by it now, and I think it is like the emperor's new clothes I knew others saw things in it, so they claimed to love it, but I had seen it and it uneffected me. One of my dearest internet friends with whom I am having a bit of reality trouble right now said something a while back about how our perspective changes and things around us don't change, but how we see them does, Yeah, nothing profound about that, it was true, but not noteworthy, until tonight. I think the movies I had seen so many times and not grasped what others loved about them need to be revisited. Things that held no value to an immature me, like this movie, may hold the secrets I long for. I think that the more like those who create a thing we are the more we will appreciate and understand the profound things they say. Conference talks amaze me how they apply to everyone all of the time. I had explained that in many other ways before, but ultimately it is the power of God that marks their words as his. They are truly instruments of His own, and the better I know God, the more I love their words, and as Ann Dibbs said last Saturday quoting John the beloved "If ye love me Keep my commandments." There was another passage that tugged at my understanding. somehow I marked it in my thoughts as being significant in that I was not ready for it yet, but it opened up to me. We are given commandments to love God with All of our heart mind and soul. It bothered me how we are also commanded to love out husbands with all of out heart. The only way I could understand that was to think that we needed to love a husband who emulates God and love and encourage that part of him. But, instantly, I thought of another scripture that had caused alot of debate and I never actually understood what it meant but had to banish it from my thoughts knowing that I was a babe and could not yet understand such things. Paul said that it was better to remain single, which didn't seem to agree at all with me "It isn't good to be alone." Anyway, I could talk in circles about that, but I thought, "Oh! we have to multiply and replenish the earth which could not be done if we never married. But, I understood that it is a matter of levels. People are on different levels in their life, and different options are appropriate for them. Perhaps it is better to not marry if you cannot love God entirely and love a spouse, but it ought to be possible.