What am I?

Ok, so. They don't make a size for me, and It is not "healthy" or "normal" for a woman of my height to weigh this amount. I guess my answer is that I'm just not normal, something isn't right. but, I'm going to deal with this and figure it all out before Mary needs to be comforted, too. Note: I'm not skinny. I just do not fit the norm for a woman. And there is little to nothing I can do to change that, so I'm just going to deal with it. I thought maybe I could get surgery to make myself look more like others, but that would only make my daughters feel alone... I gotta figure this out. It's not about diet or excercise. It's about accepting who I am.