changes

If this is going to work, somethings need to change. 1) Nick spends all of his day at work, but we have nothing to show for it. We are making no progress towards any goals. I don't think he actually has any anyway. The kids and suffer because we are stuck, legally, to that unresponsive mass. And we have no other means for support, What the heck do we have? A snoring filthy video playing mass who won't do anything to help us help ourselves. I originally moved out here because I thought a Utah man would understand and want to fufill his responsibilities. But, we have been married over 2 years with 2 kids but, he ignores them when he is home. He comments about how terribly I am doing, but offers no help. If his job is any indication of how he'd do around here, well, he got fired and is annoyed if anything disturbs his game life. But, in order to provide for this family, I need to go get a job and he can stay at home and clean things up. If he really will, I used to be afraid of leaving the house to him, but now I see the need. It's not just me. He really is quite useless, and sets a terrible example for the children.

I have more housework to do while he snores more loudly than Mary Anne's music. Seriously, this is the hardest life has ever dished out. I wish I could reasonably believe suicide was alright. I've had enough.