Continued struggles

It seems that my eternal struggle is the fight for owning originality, disguised as a fight against remaining ignorant.

My worth is self-defined by independently thinking thoughts, though I have a near insatiable curiosity, I cannot know, too much or the same ideas would not be original.

Am I speaking Greek? No, this is English, though maybe not proper, let me try story telling.

There is this really great film coming out and by the trailers which you have been watching with expectant fervor, you cannot keep from peeping on youtube to see if another trailer has been created, but instead you find a screener copy has been leaked and reviewed. Now, is the real struggle. Do you watch what you really want to, so much that Google was able to determine it would interest you and has plastered the images, like a porno pop-up gone awry, everywhere. But, as you think about it, you think, but wait, I cannot undo knowing, I can only prolong my ignorance (avoid spoilers) so that I can excitedly enjoy the film when I see it.

There is no arguing that your ideas will,be yours wether formed now or later, but maintaining your ignorance is debatable.

I do not understand, in the case of the movie, why seeing now or later would increase the pleasure, but I do understand how if Timing is as important as it has,been portrayed, then the time to make my conclusions about what will happen in the plot would still remain, whereas if I watched the review, likely I would know what happens and not be able to form my own preconceived notions.

I get both frustrated and yet fight for timed ignorance in the name of originality.