Life changing moment

What are life changing moments? Even if we have only read about or seen them in a film, we know what they are. They are the moments when, for instance, my dad heard music when he saw my mother, something surreal usually happens and whoever it happened to will know that life can never go back to what it was before. A great widely familiar example would be  the heroic tale of Frodo Baggins at the end of The Return of the King, where Samwise discusses with him how they could ever go back to life before, which ironically was exactly what they were fighting for. In conclusion of everything, a book is written to sum up his thoughts titled There and Back again. Wouldn't we all love to read about how he manages to do it, to go back again. Instead he leaves, but I will share the tale of how I went back although I changed.

"Who says you can never go back." Ok, I probably sang it wrong to fit my needs. Guilty. I do that a lot. My life changed way back when it was supposed to, but obstacles filled my prospects with doubt, fear, and general impossibility. Oh, how I wish I could have talked to myself then! But, this lyric is right "fear departs when faith endures." I decided to practice optomism, though it was not quite faith. I felt like my fate was ruined so I would mend it. I have an analogy. It would be like looking across a crowded room and seeing "the way light attaches to a girl." Great! "Is this love that I'm feeling? This must be love...it's really got a hold on me." The catch is that girl is wearing a wedding ring. This is a fictional tale, told to express my frustration. So, you decide to Marry a sister, like in Gone with the wind where Scarlett marries the brother of Ashleigh's wife. And Rhett Butler later comments that she might consider marrying someone that she loved. Ha ha ha, uh, so in back to my situation which would be less easy to understand or interesting, my desire was blocked, though it would never go away, I could rechannel that excessive passion towards something that could be, and I succeeded.
Later, I learned that success is no indication of what ought to be. Morality,yeah, the plot deepens, and it becomes a matter of what ought, if you are not LDS, quickly, I will summarize our beliefs on irrevocable laws, like the kind or morality our country was built on. Just as calculatable as other physical laws are laws of what ought or ought not to be. Infact, we have a scripture that assures us the God is bound when we obey his commandments, there is a defined should and that is what I am calling my fate. It is an inescapable laws, though unspoken by any mouth, just as certain. I can not help but do this. More entertaining is the song "how could I not love you?"

The song is meant to be a love song and it is set to various heart-wrenching video clips where a love seemed destined despite anything else. But, my fascination is that the singer is asking how they could not love something, not very romantic to me, which leads me to how I could bend my happiness but never doing anything contrary to the idea of what ought to be. In the case of love you simply determine to love who you cannot help but love, but pretend that love is intended for someone else, too.

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