I wish I could see it

I was just fighting with Mary at church yesterday cause she wanted to go find Daddy and Joe who went to get a drink or something. And the preteen girl sitting in front of me was watching. She reminded me of Lena.

I would have thought maybe she was a pal of Lena, but she was just visiting with her grandparents, I think.

I do not know how people do it, but I was really feeling concious about my hair cause I took out my barettes to put in Mary Anne's unruly hair.

Plus, as I half listened to the words spoke from the pulpit, "If we see a mother struggling with her children, have compassion..."

Finally, the girl whispered, "What is your name?" So, I was a bit confused, surely she was asking about Mary's name cause Lena and her friends are always very interested in Mary. Plus, Mary kept saying, "Hi." Then, giving her charming smile. So, I asked, "Her?  or me?" She said, "You."

I told her my name and then Mary, I thought crud! I ought to have asked her name. Then she told me, "I really like your bangs!" I wonder what she saw, they must look worse than I thought, crud, even the kids learn what to say, and I still do not know. But, people seem to know when to compliment cause they always do.so when I am at my worst. The same is true with performances, etc. It almost makes me think that they honestly see something different than I do.

Let me finish this part by saying that Mary asked if she could go sit with the girl, and I let her. She kept trying to make Elmo and Pluto kiss her new friend. She was really well behaved though, it was a very huge relief, maybe even a miracle. I never suspected it would happen that way, but I just knew something could and would be done to teach Mary that Leaving the room isn't how we deal with things, though she prefers it right now.

Then something really odd happened. In class I saw a pair of shoes that I really liked, they were a much newer, cooler, version of,mine. Basically. When comparing every shoe it was very much like mine whereas I was always embarrassed about mine, but, then, I overheard another woman say how much she loved those shoes. Then seeing how similar they were to mine, I felt as good as if she had complimented my shoes. Now, this could not assumed that she really meant to compliment my shoes because this morning I thought how ugly they were and almost didn't wear them. But, even still I wore them and a lady with very similar shoes was complimented, so others actually liked,my shoes, too.

Most people, me included, do not comment about the things that we like, though we think, I really like that!