periodic changes

     this, and all future posts were written on note pad or such offline and then pasted at a later time.

      Just like our body, the earth and everything changes, and those changes are periodic and measurable if noted and quantified for such a purpose. Take the way the moon appears for instance, if you got to assign a significance, you might say the darned thing gets really fat, but it will be a sliver again. Over time, I noticed that my size fluctuates. It has nothing to do with the ammount I eat, exercise  or even how much the sun shines on me. I reflect a different appearance because myappearance changes.
      Right now, I feel very fat, but I am unable to do my usual trick of running because I simply cannot run. As I was looking at my reflection wondering how I could alter my appearance it occurred to me that it isn't significant in the first place and I will change again, without doing anything.
      I am not abdicating do nothing. I only noticed that, yet again, we might be doing the wrong thingsd to cause the effect that we want. For instance, we could move the moon to keep it skinny looking, but that would mess up the tides and a number of other things like the method a lost stranger might use to measure the passage of time. We take for granted that the things we see will remain constant in their change, but when our bodies change we think it is not good and we seek to alter it,
      Well, as is usual, I just accidentally happened to not be able to keep harming myself, like sunbathing is now considered unhealthy, when It was all the rage and not considered a carcinogen, I lived in Seattle and looked like I climbed out from under a rock. Others complimented me on my choice to stay out of the sun, and honestly, it wasn't a choice as much of my good fortune and favor has been coincidence. I actually like the feeling of being warmed by the sun as my body does not seem to regulate it's own temperature very well anymore since my hypothermia and sunstroke in the same year. Much like all my life I simply loved to run, and honestly if it was determined that running kills you, I would still want to do it, but I cannot.
     Nevertheless, I will be skinny again. Maybe the changes are overall subtle like growing up. I am actually growing out but in a way I can accept more easily. Whatever, I have never understood the complex things my body does like making or feeding a child. I could manipulate, but never actually control what my body does. It is alot like resurrecting. How is it done? I feel a bit like Frankenstein now, but I would like to know how to bring a person back to life but I know as much as I do how to create a life, even though I have done it, it is mostly, "Magic".