I just had a thought that will be of great interest to me when it is no longer current. I must do something that will make me seem so evil and wrong, but I would glady endure that for a while so that I do not live forever a certain way, just to "save face".

the email

What's up?   I am contemplating the email that, at this point, has not been sent or even composed, but it must surely be done. I chose electronic media because it can be done without interruption, but like speech it cannot be "recalled". I put that in quotes because I said it in reference to a speech that I loved given by Captain Moroni to Zerahemna a the waters of Mormon when he lays down the law stating that this is howthings must be, but when he was done he could not recall his words. I have wondered about that for a very long time.oes he mean he cannot remember or cannor take back, or is it a translation thing? My feeling is that it is a feeling that came to his mind, much like a lot of the things that I try to translate into words, I'm doing it right now, if I didn't write t down, I'd never remember. Here's the video: (videos say everything best)

Just thinking about people

I was thinking about how so many people seem to share an enthusiasim (sp?) for the things I am passionate about. I almost undoubtably find comeradery in the circles I had always felt shunned me. It seems there are a lot of closet thinkers out there. What does that mean? Well, I was verbal about the thoughts and feelings that they dared not utter. You know the whole "Sit down you're rockin' the boat" thing. It seems that I was actually encouraged to make a fool of myself to say things that others thought but in seeing the reaction to me, they cathartically knew how to better act.

I have also thought about how many like-minded people are sort of drawn to music, Why is that? I am forming a theory. Musicians, bards, actors and artists have always sought outward recognition for the shared sensibility. I mean, really don't all kids want to be praised when they do "good" and our thinkers got side-tracked on figuring out what good is. I spend more time thinking about why everyone seceretly loves the same things but they only verbalize it because of social technology. I think it is that same character trait that prompts us to bear our hearts in a song that makes us need to tweet about our trip to the market last night. We like to share things. WE? but, we have always felt alone. It is by expressing ourselves in song or some art form that we hope to make a sort of contact.

Not to get too side-tracked, though it's what I do, I loved what a documentary about Carl Sagan's theories was talking about how rediculous it was that we would even expect other life forms to be "listening". In the movie August Rush, The old musician guy says, "Only some of us are listening." Jesus taught in parables. I think it was a need to share things in a way that would not make his meanings apparent to everyone, but only those who had eyes to see, or ears to hear.

I was so in love with the idea of art being objective. It is my conclusion that each general conference talk is a piece of art, It is understood as it applies to the individual, not necessarily how it was meant by the speaker of the words. I further wrote a paper stating that so much of the success of Shakespeare's works remaining classic and eternally applicable was how he dealt with relationships not specifics like people in particular. Every good story is one which we tend to allign ourselves with. I tend to do it with music.

I am tired, and I need a bath. Hopefully something I blabbered on about will find meaning or a home in your heart or mind. Yes, you.