Oh wow!

How humiliating.

This morning my first thought was to take a peek at things I had said in the name of conversation, and it was obvious to me that I was flailing around verbally and that in my flailing I managed to steer clear of conversation entirely, and instead found public displays that were so foolish and dare I say even childish that I wish I had not said anything, the first thought was "delete it all." But, I refrained because, if anyone sees my past and my present side-by-side I will not have to explain that a lot of maturing has occurred it is obvious.

It actually reminds me of videos I made fully thinking I waa fine and acceptible at the time so that I might more fully judge the progress.

I am dealing with a huge problem right now and I do not think the public can or ought to help form opinions. The fact was, I was a foolish, prodigal child who ought, like a tiny bird,not left the nest prematurely, but my anxious nature won. I headstrongly thought I was able to make life-changing desicions, but clearly, I ought not have. For what it is worth. Mostly, I learn it from how we perform baptisms, that the Lord will not hold me accountable for the choices I made when I was not really able to yet.