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This is backwards, resting all day and then being unable to sleep at night, but I like it. I like the peace of night time. It means that I will not be interrupted if I do something. Transitions are always hard, but sometimes they are necessary.

Atlantis time again

I started watching Stargate Atlantis again, and I love it so much, I think I will kick off this round with a mighty lesson learned from Season 1 Episode 14 (Sanctuary). In this episode there is an ascended ancient who is living in a world of her own, profiding and protecting perfectly, yet, she is hiding and after centuries she starts to feel alone when fatefully, she is (pretending to speak on behalf of this great diety) invited to Atlantis (formerly the city of the ancients).

The greatest lesson, which I am not able to say if it was intended or the truth was just stumbled on by creating new situations, was how she was curious spiritually about all of the,various,beliefs earth had.

Her world was entirely populated by people's who acted and believed in accordance. Descisions were not difficult to form because they were all of the same intent. Though, she loved the creation of so,many great and wonderful philosophies, but the disagreed on points and issues arose which could not be solved though commonality.

Strange coincidence

At the time, I did not think much of it, sort of like her change in hair color, which incidentally, I noticed because she noticed what I had done, but I didn't even say anything. Why? Saying the things you notice gives others valuable feedback.

Anyway, I woke up thinking about the extremely charming dental assistant and how she told me that she played trombone. And the major coincidence is why she played it opposed to what she wanted to play. But, it turns out with conversation that we have a whole lot in common, although, she is taller, younger, and much more sure of herself.

Hey, maybe that is what was so significant that was supposed to occur to me. The thing that made her so beautiful to me was how able she was. Not her manicure, or hair, or any number of other things she had done, at some expense, to compensate for lack of self worth.

She had a very pretty smile, too, but explained that she had to have major surgery and have her mouth wired shut for weeks, until it "set". It was worth it, if you ask me, especially in her profession, which I wonder if she will peruse after she has children, but that is another topic alltogether, huh?

No synagog required

My husband forbade me from attending church today, to heal, it makes sense, but as the saying goes, "you can take the girl out of the Honky Tonk, but you can't take the Honky Tonk out of the girl." That's the way it is with me and the Sabbath. Sure, I might not be in a church Building, but I am still prayerful and worshipful, and God is everywhere. In the Book of Mormon there is a group of people who built a grand synagog and then denied the poor from worshiping there. They followed a man named Zoram and so were called Zoramites. Through many situations and lessons we learn that it really does not matter how fine your place of worship is or isn't (reminds,me of all of those mighty cathedrals in Europe) God hears our prayers regardless of the origin. He also knows the intent of our hearts.

Really quick, I was blabbering to someone about how I think it a blessing to not be adequately forewarned about public speaking because 1) less time to worry 2) the extra time would not be spent studying and writing anyway. And a comment was brilliantly added that when someone apologizes for not being sufficiently prepared, the audience thinks, then I can tune out if you didn't take your job seriously, to study then, likewise I will not take,my job of listening seriously.

Ok, so I realized that I will miss the sacrament, that's sad, but I am learning truths intended to be learned through whatever means I search for them.

For example, I miss the talks and lessons, but I just got a cool lesson I always missed before while watching the movie "17 Miracles". When asked to begin burning the remains Levi Savage says nothing. This is the same reaction I give to a lot of things. Now, I do not know if it was actin, writing, or directing insight but clearly he has a lot on his mind an out of fear or reacting incorrectly he does not react. Now, that there is a wrong way to react there is,a right way. A nearby soldier speaks up and says that the solution is prayer. I was taught that this is similarly my solution, he he, to have a free-speaking soldier present at all times.

Ok, that was a joke, but it did explain another reason why it is not good to be alone. Clearly, some action was required, but too often I am unable to make one instantly, sort of like not going to church. I would have, but my husband saw that it would not be wise, because he does not think I am recovered yet, and too much exertion would do harm. So we need the need for counselors and for missionaries, companions, and for doctors we have second opinions.

Offenses

People get offended by "Holier Than Thou" people way too easily and selfishly assign meaning where none was intended.

It usually comes from someone who regrets what they have done or are doing. They judge themselves and so assume that anyone with an ammount of dignity they relate to must be judging them.

Brain Dump

We are loved more than we,know. Example is that we think no one will notice if we die, but it is amazing how much we are missed.

A boy that told a story about how differently a leader noticed he was and asked if he was Mormon because he had a certain thing about him. Recognized by others that he had read his scriptures.

Brad in Seattle lost his wallet.

Liberty in law is more than a in-law joke. True freedom is only found through obedience to the law. This brings peace of mind.

Sacrifice -story about guy who was,investigated the church, he would not listen at all to hear about tithing, but he eventually

Any church who would not require sacrifice does not have the authority

Peace offering - to recognize a higher law
Burnt offering - this had a lot to do with smoke.
Sin offering - to trade for repentance.

The animal was blessed and became symbolic of them.

We need to inquire of the Jews if they understand what the sacrifices for.

Sacrament requires a broken heart and contrite spirit.

Your sin causes problems for others, you feel more remorse. It can cause more broken heartedness.

We actually, recognize those that are also harmed by our sins.

Isaac - how old was he? Well, we know that he wasn't a teenager, cause  they will not do anything.

We sacrifice our children by letting them go out the front door, but we pray they won't die.

Why do we have alters in the temple, specifically, why do we have alters when we are married over the alter.

Story about a man who left his family for church wrote a letter to his father the dat he was baptised and his dad still had that letter in his belongings when he died.

Unless we sacrifice we will not feel comfortable.

Give up something we like for.something better.

Relief Society

18th solar ovens

Elder Porter's talk

Optimistic roomate. Someone was singing "Oh what a Beautiful Morning".

Two ways to greet the morning "Elder Pitts" in England said, "You can say ThNk you Lord it is morning, or say oh Lord, it's morning."

Asked others what they thought of when the word  morning is used.

Light was mentioned. The Lord is a likeness or Metaphor  for light.

Things that make a beautiful morning include prayer, scripture, music.

Things never seem as terrible in the morning as they did at night.

I needed to bear my testimony about a thing if I do not get a chance to say it. **I did. It was how when we were being judged to determine which kingdom to go to at a youth conference the only thing we were asked was if we believed in pur Savior. Which I did and marveled at how simple that was. It is because I believe .

Scriptures. Lord speaks to us through the scriptures. We speak to him in prayer. Scriptures are the same thing as having the words of a living prophet.

Elder Faust talked about priesthood blessings, and how you can become who you should and the blessings give you a small peek, if we could see the person we were we would easily obey anything quickly.

Makes me think of the film Validation.

Story about a bishop who called everyone on their birthday.

Obituary that said, "I love life and life loves me."

Turn pessimism to optimism.

Intentions

I was going to write of things that I meant to accomplish but realized that it would encompass my entire life.

I just feel it accutely today.

And, that is why the,best advice a friend gave me years ago, but it still stuck with me is don't settle for less than you intend. Life changes on a dime, if it's not going how you like, just wait. The same is true for if things are going your way. By your way, I mean the way you intend.

Also, my balm would be to those who are struggling like me with intentions that make you feel helpless think about why you have intentions and either get rid of them or do something about it.