loop dee loop

I go in circles on this, right now I am in the part of a circular trail with my mental discusion where, I can understand things more clearly and I see how foolish I have been to hope such a foolish thing, but I have always hoped for foolish things like Rhett Butler in GWTW I like lost causes when they are truly lost. I feel happiest when I stop and look and see that my struggle was all imaginary, anyway. Well, not entirely. but the part of being figured out is, I remain insignificant!