And today was extremely pivotal,
His choices are making mine obvious and easy.
There are many ways that he could let me know what's up, but he doesn't.
Not anything unusual, but definately not the way I plan to spend eternity. I spent all of the time juggling 2 babies trying to make a meal that would be satisfactory for him, all the while I am sorta being prompted by a little don't know which is the devil or which is a little angle, but it whispers, you really shouldn't put up with that, no reward is worth it. or, get out now, or you will really regret it! So, no I didn't do other things that I wanted to or ought to, just in order to make a meal that will be cold an crappy and unappreciated. Probably, because while our fridge breaks andI struggle to feed the babies, he goes to resturants or spends his precious moneyon fast food, and then just liters his car with the empty bags and such. I really should'veknown better than to absob the blame after seeing his car and the state of things that he supposedly takes care of. Even his family members have bragged that he was so god at cleaning things and he considers himself such a fine cook, but NEVER has he offered to cook a meal for me or anything but accuse meof rediculos things like burning food or not organizing things or losing things because of ADD, whatever. I honestly am having another day where I question how much I can take Almost 7 and nothing. How discourteous. That's it, I'm going out and not leaving a note. We've already eatten and I'm tired of waiting so that I can leave he house for a second. It would be nicer if I knew what I was dealing with.
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