I feel myself getting dangerously close to the point where everything will be new to me. Mostly, I I came to a break through conclusion and felt good about it. I had just repeated myself I did exactly as I would have making a do over pointless. Today, I came to my break through conclusion though, but like love, it passed, and now I am reconsidering the idea that love isn't really necessary. I am afraid of another reset. I do not relish loosing everything again, unless it is for a good, much better purpose that I cannot understand.
We actually do learn a lot from the things we do as parents, I am constantly given little lessons.
One was that children do not see the big picture like parents do. And I learn alot from repairing computers. There are times when no ammount of thinking or rigging is going to fix anything. A reset is the only way.
Joseph inherited an old computer of mine, that said "optimized for 98". I had an old version of WinXP so that he could use the internet to update codecs for his media player. But he wanted to play games that didn't fit on the hard drive. I wanted to dual install 98, but when I tried to repartition the drive, it would not install because of bad sectors. And I could not downgrade install the new operating system. If I formatted I would loose USB support which included the mouse.
I spent hours awake and asleep trying to work out a solution, but ultimately my only choice was to format and reinstall.
"God said, 'Thou shalt not murder' at another time He said, 'Thou shalt utterly destroy.' This is the principle on which the government of heaven is conducted–by revelation adapted to the circumstances in which the children of the kingdom are placed. Whatever God commands is right, no matter what it is, although we may not see the reason thereof till long after the events transpire."
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