unexpected moments?

Everyone has them. I wrote a song called "unexpected moment before to explain a particular moment that I wanted to have. I have always had a little bit of "Joseph Smith envy." What a moment! if that was a pattern then it teaches that we first must be prepared, and prepared he was, there have been strange moments where I knew I was being tutored because I woul have never come to such conclusions on my own. Next, we must find a secluded place and pray, uh, that is what "I" was expecting. In Relief Society they were discussing hoe people purposely do not ask things or find a place to ask because they "sincerely" do not want to know (speaking in reference to particular missionary experiences). I was preoccupied with another thought that i had not yet finished so I wasn't paying too much attention, but quickly I heard that and thought "yeah, I had always wanted to have such a spectacular moment, but would just rather believe that I could then really find out." then as if in answer someone explain that it was almost scientific that if you pray, you will find out, And it is common for people not to have to deal wth such an undeniable fact, especially one that will change their life.

So, now my moment. It was definatly unexpected. I had originally chosen hymn number 12 for a closing hymn, then changed it to number 2 out of concern for the pianist's ability. And familiarity. Not that she would have difficulty, but alot of people struggle with sight reading and she obviosly didn't know that one, and had been abscent since Jan. So, I could not give her the hymn in advance, anyway 2 is the Spirit of God, and it seemed to be too long, children started pening the door, but we were performing it as quickly as we could (not really praying it) I felt terrible, so decided about the last verse to give the lyrics more attention, and it happened, I thought of how Joseph hsad been reading a passage in James when he figured it all out, for me it was in the lyric "And Ephraim be crowned with his blessing in zion....chariot of fire."

I was almost rendered unable to use my mouth for a time. his needed to be thought about. It was right there! I wondered what it was commonly translated into the venacular to mean. makes me think about min studying the old prophecies that many had explained and in our lesson how it said "His faith in God led him away from the belief, common in his day..." So anyway, I haven't decided on a place, but have decided that it must be done. I had struggled with my questionlong enough. and I know that if I don't step up, another will.