Just a useless thought

I had trouble catagorizing this one, but it's my turn to say what I'm thinking. So here it is.

1)always somehow worming it's way into my thoughts is how happy I am and how happiness is not just a right but a purpose. Like how you say, "oh, I love that!" It was intended.

2) I honestly prefer stupid people. They don't understand you and say so, but wiseguys always nod or act like they understand you, and they understand, and maybe the fault is mine, but what they understand is not what I meant. I just prefer making things totally clear to kids, for example, you talk down to them, but they would not understand otherwise. And they do not get offended at the way I talk to them, in fact they like it.

I miss my older children because they were finally getting old enough to carry on decent conversations. I always felt better talking to them. It is like old wine in New,vessels. It was new win in a,New jar when they were born, and now they are maturing well, the way I always yearned that others would,be, but my ex took them far away and I never hear from anyone.