I cannot believe how strongly I feel about this song. I guess it's a way of telling me that if power is what is needed, then I'll have it. It really is comforting to find that sort of explination amid the mundane things of life.
Really, my heart is breaking, and tears are fallling out of my eyes. I probably drank too muchwater yesterday, naw, I'm just trying to lessen the impact with a touch of humor, cause I'm really really feeling something intensely. I suspect that is why we all crave music, books, games, videos or interaction that leades to the concept of eternal marriage, because we want to "replay" those things forever.
I'll tell a brief tale of a time I bore my testimony (which is what we believe) in Gallatin at a church meeting. I had just gotten married and I decided to tell those who would listen what I had concluded about eternal marriage. It was required because it would take forever to say everything to someone else that we felt. I was so fresh, I cried just because Brandall looked for too long at a cute girl in the mall. Stupidly, I thought our marraige was over and it had just started. I told him everytrhing. We had ver long conversations, yes, conversations, they were not one-sided. I really loved to hear what he had to say. We were ultimately on totally different levels. It's like Jacob and Reneeseme I had imprinted on someoe who was totally out of my league. Sure, I would catch up, but it allowed a chance for him to show his amount of understanding, which his axtions though high to many are quite below what I consider ideal. Now, I have passed him, and am experiencing what he must've felt for me, a love that was hopeful, but not complete.
Anyway, I think I shall go think quietly to myself for a while. I am feeling more and more alone in this world. Though for a short time I ligned up with so many others on a different level and I endure comforted by the fact that they are headed the same direction, and knowing that there are many more on levels higher than me even. It is time to explore what I need to be sohappy in the next life, I lived one half being happy in this life missing firey darts by a long shot due to preparations I had made prior to coming here, now I am working again... but, Amid all of my work there is a thought, "Why? What for?" does growing go on forever or is it finite?
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