Hello world

Yes, I acknowedge the world may exsist in a way to read or understand this, but at this point, I cannot claim to understand Why I believe the folowing, and it really isn't a part of why I believe anyway. Though I enjoy organizing words to be reasonable. Being reasonabe is not an objective of this farwell.

Good bye world.

I do not believe that there will be generation of people for whom I am responsibe to for leaving a legacy. I beieve that Jesus Christ will return to earth during my lifetime. It sounds fantastical, but to me it really is not so much. I do fuly believe that Jesus Christ came and did rise again, and he lives in much the same form that you do reading this. so much has spoken directly to my heart in various ways teling me surely that these are the last days, and so my ultimate conclusion does not change.

My duty for now is now. I am a mother and My childsren are my top priority, all of them. I still write "Journals" for their benefit, but realize that nothing I might say will be new to them. I do not believe that someday these words will be seen as an ancient way of life and communication, but I record them in the present so that they may be true and of no decit or attempt to fool you into thinking that I suppose something marvelous will happen that you may know it first here.
;thus, glorifying myself! Hail the great me for seeing the obvious!

You say "Hello." I say "goodbye."
Hello hello, I don't know why... I say goodbye.





Addendum: I add this because I wanted it to be somewhere it would not be read. I really am through. I concluded that the same things do not matter to me as matter to you anyway. I realized the the fact that I clling on when there is really no real reason goes against what mother's have taught their sons for centuries, and it can be used against me. I thought, if peope can do the worst and I am not suffiently offended, then why do anything to please me? I only come here to escape the reality that I created. I ought to get offine and change it if I don't like it.



here and now is the time to do all the right things and become the mover and shaker I ought to have been all aong and be the winning horse not just the dark one.